I heard your voice

I found a video on the internet….

I heard your voice

I felt instantly a little calmer…… why?

When the sight of you spins me into a panic?

Is this what our baby would of sounded like?

Oh how I wish to hear your heartbeat?

When I hear it I feel closer to the baby

Oh how my heart hurts lately …..

Why? If you feel it too, send me a sign

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It would almost be your birthday

It would almost of been your second birthday and I sit here and reflect on the last two and a half years.

What would life be like?

I’m so happy with my life but there is still a part of me is sad and there is still a small part of my heart is broken.

But know that I love you, know that I think of you everyday, know that I wanted you, know that you are forever a part of me.

I know that you are the wind in my hair, the birds that I hear, butterflies that I see, the soft grass that I touch and the warmth that pops into my heart every now and then. I know that you are near, I know that you are here.

I shared this photo with your dad xx

Know that I try to include him, know that I think of him with kindness. Just because he doesn’t reply doesn’t mean he doesn’t care.

I say a little prayer for you 

For every word is for you and about you………..

The moment I wake upBefore I put on my makeup

I say a little pray for you

While combing my hair now

And wondering what dress to wear now

I say a little prayer for you

Forever and ever, you’ll stay in my heart

And I will love you

Forever and ever, we never will part

Oh, how I love you

Together, forever, that’s how it must be

To live without you

Would only mean heartbreak for me

I run for the bus, dear

While riding I think of us, dear

I say a little prayer for you

At work I just take time

And all through my coffee break time

I say a little prayer for you

Forever and ever, you’ll stay in my heart

And I will love you

Forever and ever we never will part

Oh, how I’ll love you

Together, forever, that’s how it must be

To live without you

Would only mean heartbreak for me
Do you hear me? 

I talk to you often? 


They say that time heals everything…..

They say that time heals everything…… Time does lessen the pain but I believe that the pain is always there. Triggered by memories, triggered by dates, triggered by what could of been! 

It’s been two years today since you were ripped out of me and I still think of you every day, I still miss you everyday but it doesn’t hurt as much. Maybe I’ve just got stronger? 

I’ll still think of you everyday for always my precious little angel. 

Mummy X